Can't even read my own SimLit- what do I do?

I feel like there might be multiple reasons for this:

- Are you the sort of person who likes to control 'all aspects' of the story? SimLit I find includes more curveballs, having to work around the limits of the game and such. For me, it's good to have the game to fill in the gaps for me and create a framework I can work around, but possibly for you, maybe you prefer having the whole thing be of your own design, if that makes sense?

- It could possibly just be that you vibe more with your non-Sims writing than your Sims stuff. I found myself being more interested in my SimLit than in my non-Sims stuff because the plots were easier to handle.

- There's always the big case of self-comparison which I really, really struggle with in some creative areas. Maybe you feel like you're 'not as good' as other people either because you prefer the way they do things or because people seem more into their stuff than your own, possibly. I get this a lot moreso with my art than my writing and I get wrapped up in it easily.

I think the only way really to get out of this feeling is to realise everyone has something unique they bring to the table when it comes to any creative work, and every story will have some people who enjoy it. When you say even if you can't read your writing neither will your reader, I see where you're coming from but I feel you may be being a bit too harsh on yourself - I've seen loads of stuff by people who say their stuff isn't that good that's been really enjoyable! I also think there's zero pressure to write something that's long, deep, or dark in some way or another, there's plenty of space for short, lighthearted, slice-of-life type stuff as well. I feel like with the SimLit community there's a place for every style in some sense and I really like that actually.

Not exaggerating at all ^u^ Don't worry, I felt the same way with some of my older stories. I look back on them and I still enjoy them, but they're full of little issues that are difficult to ignore And the same as you, especially back then when I was dealing with some hard topics and had no CC or mods, so I had to somehow work in the confines of a game where everyone is happy 24/7 about everything... : P

I don't think it's disrespectful if I'm honest, these games are designed for storytelling and you can tell that story however you wish! I know what you mean though - the one I'm writing right now is a lot heavier and it's hard to try and do some things justice at times.

I have this problem too! I had a blog I worked on years ago that I can no longer go on because I will die of cringe.
Most if not all creative people will be harsh self critics, and I think what you feel is pretty normal. Why you feel that for SimLit in particular might be the vibes, or the specific story, or the format itself.
If it's been a while since you wrote the stuff you can't read, it might simply be a sign of growth. It's incredible how different I am in the three-ish years since I posted on my old blog.
So don't be hard on yourself- I assure you, there will be someone who understands your vision, and loves your story for what it is, even if you don't.
This is a great community to explore and grow in, as everyone is very supportive.

If you still feel like your passion is dying, I've found that switching things up a bit helps me to pick things back up again. Approaching in a different way, letting the sims scope out their own relationships, borrowing things from completely different genres, stuff like that.
Also, if you like to write dark stuff, I'd say go for it with the sims! It is mostly a toony game, but I've read SimLit that play their dark scenarios straight and the execution was such that it the 'toonyness' didn't even register. In fact, I love dark sims stories!